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I wrote this song at a particularly low point of my social life. It had been months since I had anyone special, and I decided (as most men do at some point) that enough was enough and I was certainly capable of solving this problem. So I made a concerted effort to get dates with any woman who looked nominally attractive and sounded marginally sane. Yes, impressive standards.
I was eating lunch in a diner two blocks from my house and this very nice looking, too young woman (I use the term to validate my impulses) was serving me. She was friendly, intelligent, of good humor, etc. So I asked her if she'd like to go out. Two days later I was driving out to her parents' home. She had her own place but for some reason this was a better meeting spot. Dad didn't look at all happy to meet me. I later learned he owned the entire city block that contained the diner...
So we drove around, chatted, me thinking this could be a great date, her apparently thinking that she needed a wild time. The only sins a man regrets are those he never commits. In the course of these two ships passing in the night, I learned the dysfunctional history of her last boyfriends and how badly they had treated her. It took me a couple years to really take this lesson to heart, but I am a slow learner. And that's what this song is, the first 'Ah ha!' of the romantic man realizing that nice guys really, truly do finish last.
This was recorded in the old studio on the Tascam 8-track cassette machine. I played and sang everything. To give you an idea of the song's age, I made a killer cassette cover on an old photocopier, with my head under the lid.
Would I have to be bad to be with you?
'Cause I can be an asshole if you want me to
But I'm not suicidal, and I won't hit you
Is that too dull for you?
Would I have to fuck you to be with you?
'Cause I could curl your toes if you want me to
But I'd rather go slow and fall for you
Is that too dull for you?
I don't know where I went wrong, but I went wrong with you
I don't know who you want, but I'll be him for you
Would I have to stalk you to be with you?
'Cause I would follow you home if you asked me to
But I'd rather wake up and smile at you
Is that too dull for you?
I'm lucky to live just a few blocks from the bay. The city put in a boardwalk about ten years ago, hoping to attract tourists. Our gale-force winds did not deter them, neither did Highway 101, which runs parallel about 20 feet away. The owner of the small grocery store nearby said that, judging by the number of people who use the boardwalk, it must have cost about $10,000 per user.
Well, I use it. I eat lunch down there if I can arrive before the wind kicks up. Sometimes, afterwords, I walk south along the bay shore on a concrete path that ends at our last operating lumber mill, passing a lot of freight cars around the way. Scenic? No.
And that's where I met Buzzard. The song tells the rest. Typically, my songwriting involves a good measure of fiction. This one is the exception, every word is true.
I played all the instruments and sang. Eric helped out a lot with the time signatures, driving the song with his drums.
Took a walk on the asphalt ribbon
That stretches out beside the bay
The sun was heavy and the wind was light
Coulda been a poster for a perfect day
Out behind the trains where you can see the mill
I heard a voice like gravel and a cigarette
He said "Hello" and ask if I would join him
On some broken concrete, that's how we met
He said his name was "Buzzard," and I believed him
He offered me some beer in a too-big can
I had an extra cigar, and he lit it up
In his dirty, shaking, unsteady hand
He had a dog with a Korean name
A joke on his first wife, is what he said
She was killed on a Harley in L.A. traffic
But he didn't miss her, she was better off dead
On the road less travelled, is what the poet said
On the road less travelled, but angels fear to tread
On the road less travelled, the road less travelled
The road less travelled by<
He gets a check from California
Enough for two weeks in a cheap motel
Spends the other two asking for food and money
Sleeping underneath a bridge where the cops don't tell
His daddy was rich back in Oklahoma
And when he died he passed some money down
But he stabbed a patron in his favorite bar
And the sheriff suggested he get out of town<
Left a house back in Oklahoma
He's got a daughter that lives there now
With a couple of grand-kids that he's never met
But he doesn't hear much from 'em anyhow<
I mostly listened, and kept on smoking
We agreed that problems can be too much fun
He liked drinking, I like cigars
And we sat there smiling in the morning sun
He was on his way to Tacoma
When the car broke down and the cops stepped in
I was on my way home, but I didn't invite him
Was it self-defense, or a mortal sin?
We said "Goodbye" and I walked away
Passed under a shadow, looked up to see
The Stars and Stripes, and the truth that made them
For better or worse, in the Land of the Free
I wrote this when I was 20 or 21, somewhere near the end of my undergraduate career. It was my second acoustic piece. The first one is actually more difficult to play, but I like this one better. At some point I realized that good music didn't always have to be challenging. I was walking around humming the main melody in my head, and it suddenly dawned on me that this was how songs get written. Oh to be young again.
My musical diet as a child was very much based around classical music, some soft pop, and plenty of hymns. As a teen I discovered rock (it was a good historical period to discover rock) and noticed that a lot of bands I liked were putting acoustic instrumentals on their albums.
I don't know when I first realized I was a closet 'American' music fan. I know, I know, jazz and rock are American ideas too. But I am thinking more in the bluegrass/country/folk vein. It's a style I really admire for the human quality of the notes and the great storytellers who play them.
Anyway, this one is just me playing Tami, my ancient and venerable cheapo Korean Ovation six-string. But that's another story.
This song was written after driving a girlfriend from my home on the southern Oregon coast to the Seattle airport. It takes about 8 hours if you push it. I suppose a real madman could do it in 6 hours, but the title 'Seven Hours' seemed just about right.
If you aren't from around these parts, you can get out a road atlas and trace our progress from my home town up to Seattle.
After dropping her off, I turned right around and headed back again. It comes to about 16 hours of driving, more than the law allows for professional drivers and definitely something not to be repeated.
The rest of the song is pure fiction. I considered the story effective when my brother inquired about what inspired the song in a very concerned tone. For the record, I don't use or sell illegal drugs. Anyone care for a cigar and some Scotch?
This was the first project Eric and I did in the new studio, and we consider it one of our finest efforts. It was a one-evening session. Eric did more on this piece than anything we have collaborated on before. It's a real statement about how far he has come as a musician. He played all the solos, the bass line, and the drums. And he produced the superb sound effects. I wrote the lyrics, sang, and played the two guitar parts.
The sun went down at nine, we had six hundred miles to drive
Manny wanted payment and we had to stay alive
Cut a lot of corners on Highway Thirty-Eight
Eric felt a little sick but we couldn't get there late
Slid down onto the Interstate, headed for Eugene
Clock was ticking in my head and Eric's face was mean
Blew through Portland on the clock then things turned for the worse
State policeman met us, we passed an empty hearse
We couldn't stop with all that cash stuffed inside the trunk
Eight pistons pounding, four-barrel growling, screaming for some luck
Policeman left us on the bridge that crosses the state line
I pressed the pedal to the floor but we were running out of time
Manny had a condo out on Puget Sound
We burned down through Seattle as the seconds counted down
Hey man, did you guys have any trouble getting here?
No... no trouble at all
I played this one on Tami using the same slide I've had since I was 15, sawed off the end of a chrome tent peg. Eric chipped in with some really nice brush work and a tambourine that was perfect. I also added a little Hammond organ to the B-sections. It was all one live take, singing and everything, and I think that's the way it should be.
Alonza Latta was raised in Lake Arthur, New Mexico during the Great Depression. He often said that his family was dirt poor but they had no idea it was true. Their house wouldn't have passed modern building codes, but it kept them warm. The cows and chickens and gardens and beehives kept them full.
He eloped with Grace Lantz at age 22 (his father wasn't so good at pushing the fledglings from the nest) and somehow ended up in central Oregon. From there, a series of construction jobs took him all over the Pacific Northwest, where he bluffed his way into a career operating heavy machinery.
As the stork kept increasing the family size, the desire to settle down grew stronger. He took a job with the post office in Redmond, farming 80 acres in his spare time. His faithful church service and basketball skill kept him busy. He also loved to build, modify, and create furniture and machines, with mixed success.
Retirement brought him to the Oregon coast, where he fished for salmon commercially for many years. His greenhouse window was always filled with cactus, orchids, and other beautiful plants. He lost his wife of more than 50 years, but kept active with volleyball and concrete work (doing the heavy lifting) well into his 70s.
After his second try at being a bachelor stretched to ten years, he decided to relive his youth by eloping for a second time. His old accquaintance and second wife was his faithful companion when he finally succumbed to cancer after a five years.
His kindness, generosity, work ethic, humor, and vigor were legendary. There won't be another man like him any time soon, who accomplished so much, with such grace, and shared it with so many. I'm priviledged beyond kings to have called him "Grandpa".
The dozers run, and never stop
The tools are new and never slip
The wells are perfect, every drop
where Grandpa lives in Heaven
The mail is never, ever late
The basketballs never miss
The salmon always take the bait
where Grandpa lives in Heaven
When my ship sets sail across that sea
I'll look back hopefully
Will anyone remember me
like Grandpa up in Heaven?
They're growing orchids just like stars
They're carving birds that fly away
No one needs to drive new cars
where Grandpa lives in Heaven
When my ship arrives across that sea
I'll step ashore to family
And ask the Lord if I can be
where Grandpa lives in Heaven
This is the only love song I've ever written without a woman in mind. It's also my best. Psychologists, your mission is clear.
I was really interested in writing a love song that had some kind of story or structure beyond the usual sap. So I imagined an intense and painful journey, traversing hostile climates and terrain, to get to that special someone. And I decided it should all happen in the space of a day, too. That's a lot of metaphors and images but I'm really happy with how they fit together.
Eric definitely knows how to rock, you can feel him driving this song with the cymbals. My former business partner served as recording engineer for this track, in the old studio. After the basic tracks were done, he thought it was really boring and repetitive. But the final layers of vocals brought him around. Kids! I sang and played everything except the drums.
I've been sliding down the broken ground that splits the land of Dawn
Crawling, callling, slipping, falling, I keep hanging on
Through the glare of white sun-stare I crawl the wastes of Noon
Elbows blistered, parched tongue whispered, 'Will I make it soon?'
I would taste a thousand deaths to kiss you in the dark
I would waste a thousand breaths to catch a tiny spark
Sitting on the edge of the night
I would walk a thousand years to pass an hour with you
I would mock a thousand fears to make the dream come true
Sitting on the edge of the night
The empty track just leads to black, as Dusk falls on my eyes
The shades of gray kill the day, spur me toward the prize
I know that soon, beneath the moon, I can finally rest
Starlight falls on Siren's calls and times we call 'the best'
The first thing you need to know is that she was HOT. I mean Marylin Monroe hot. Racquel Welch hot. The kind of hot that makes men into boys and boys into men.
Our fathers went to medical school together, but hers died in a plane crash when she was very young. Her mother and stepfather moved back into our area when I was in junior high school, but she and I had different friends, different interests, different bodies. She was the the 13-year-old that makes prison seem worthwhile. I was the nerd.
High school was no better. I didn't walk around pining for her, but there was always a kind of hushed awe when she was navigating the hallways. My best friend in high school got to know one of her best friends, and by the time we were having our graduation party, we somehow had a friendly conversation at a pizza parlor. I can still remember every stupid and inane word I said, which was most of them.
When my father died suddenly and unexpectedly, I couldn't help but think that talking with her might do some good. I managed to track her down in Portland, and quickly reverted to the worship of that perfect body. There were mixed signals, I pushed with all the grace of a dancing elephant, and she married a multi-millionaire.
I can realistically say that there is no possible way we could have been happy together. There are times and places in a man's life where none of that matters, though. To console myself, I reminisced and realized I had inadvertantly (I swear) dated her other three cheerleading teammates at various points in my life.
The song tells the story, you can imagine the details for yourself. I played all the instruments and sang. Eric did a great job on the percussion.
I left you a message a couple days ago
Thinking that I'd hear from you, but how was I to know?
Maybe you just screen your calls
Maybe talking of our dads would drive you up a wall
Maybe you're in Italy
I know that you've been busy getting your degree
Finding new employment and avoiding guys like me
Maybe I should let it slide
Maybe years and choices leave a gulf that's just too wide
Maybe
I know your tape was rolling when I placed my call
So I left my number knowing that the chances were small
Maybe I'm too forward
Maybe reaching out to someone is its own reward
Maybe
Maybe there's a message waiting at home
I spent some time in Sweden with a girlfriend. Like most "available" women near my age, she had an ex-husband.
We were standing in the town square of Karlskrona, which is a very old city. She decided to call her ex-husband, with whom she has remained somewhat friendly, since we had been on vacation for a few days and she wanted to check in with him. That's a tough spot for the boyfriend (me).
I stood there and tried to be patient while she was in the phone booth. I can't really explain exactly what happened, but I started to assimilate the swirling emotions and and ancient surroundings, the foreign culture and my tiny, insignificant place in the world. It sounds like all this newness and turmoil would be depressing and overwhelming, but by the time she came out of the phone booth, I had found a very deep peace. It was kind of clarity, not just about what matters in life, but also about my place in the Universe.
I sang and played the guitar. Eric played a cabasa I bought for his birthday.
I stood on the cobblestones in Karl's Crown, Sweden
A flock of ravens called me home
My back to the world as the darkness held me
As above, so below
The empty square was bathed in starlight
The empty air was cool and clear
Steam slipped from my lips to Heaven
Just Seven Steps to peace, from despair
There were just two sounds in that moment
When all the world was in my hand
My beating heart, and the ravens' call
Music for a final stand
Waves of meaning rolled around me
A tear of hope rolled down my cheek
Borrowed time is doubly precious
Borrowed time is doubly precious
It's the other birthright of the meek
I stepped off the cobblestones in Karl's Crown, Sweden
The ravens settled in a tree
Time resumed, and I embraced it
My borrowed speck of Eternity
Emptying out the old studio was one of the hardest things I've done that didn't involve another human being. It was scary how attached I had become to that place. Eric wanted more space for his family and it was time to move.
My grandfather Alonzo and Eric's father-in-law both helped us put up the walls and insulation. Eric and I had invested a lot of sweat in making our teen dream come true - a real, bona fide recording studio. I spent hundreds of hours there (Eric probably thousands) and it was almost like a divorce when we packed it up.
I don't know what divorcing couples do on their last night together, but Eric and I agreed we had to put down one more track before we started pulling wires and moving equipment racks. We stayed up most of the night, but this song says just what I wanted to say about the six years we worked in that room.
Eric played the keyboards and bass on this song, along with the drums. I did the lyrics, singing, and guitars. The sound at the start is a twelve-string Takamine straight to the board. Not very acoustic sounding, but interesting.
Six years of good times, now the story has to end
So many notes, so many nights, just so many days for us to spend
Now it's done, the story's over
Now it's done
In the quiet of the night, my arms, my arms up against your wall
And when I close, when I close my eyes I can hear your silence call
Hear your silence call
Six years of music, making every note ring true
So many songs, so many sung, you know I'll always think of you
Written for a talented female singer of the torch-song variety, but I had to take a stab at it myself in order to show her what I had in mind. Rest assured that her version will melt your belt when it's completed, and I'll put it up here.
The song mixes a little bit of food and drink in with the metaphor of addictive misbehavior. I think most people can identify with those vices.
I played the piano, the bass and sang. Eric did the drums and percussion.
I've been bad
Please, don't be mad
It's just a little habit I've acquired
Like the first drops
of peppermint schnapps
or whatever a heart has desired
Yes, it's true
but please, don't be rude
Don't raise a big ruckus 'round our friends
You see that I simply can't help myself
My love for you never ends
It's been here
It must have been years
but it seems like it's barely arrived
I want to parade
but I must masquerade
the way I've discretely imbibed
Yes, it's true
but please, don't construe
My addicition requires no amends
You see that I simply can't help myself
My love for you never ends
Don't send me to a clinic
Don't mend me like a cynic
Don't imply I don't know
or deny that I show you how I am totally yours
I"ve been bad
Please, don't be sad
It's something I really can't shake
Like the last taste
of pure Hollandaise
It's enough to make this poor heart break
Yes, it's true
but please, don't "boo hoo"
There's no cure MOther Nature intends
You see that I simply can't help myself
My love for you never ends
My love for you never ends
Eric wrote this song! I'm proud to host it here. It's a great introduction to what a fantastic musician and arranger he has become. The groove is infectious.
Eric made every single sound on this track.
Close the door, here come the dogs of war
Infidels and tyrant lords
Shoeless freaks and massive hordes
Turn up the volume! Instant replay
Syndicated orphan shows
Lazer lights on earthly days
Give that rock another throw
I want war! I want peace!
I want piece! A piece of you!
It's just another craze
A craze on you
War machine - electric eye
Things that go "boom" in the night
Religion at the point of gun
Holy war has now begun
Infidel meets freak
Tyrant freedom meets free tyrant
I better go pour a drink
The news is coming on
I don't know what to think
I'm so confused
Did you get those bombs made yet?
Good
Praise Allah
What? I didn't hear you honey
The news was too loud
Bit, bit, bit by bit
Bitch, bitch, bitch by bitch